watched the two towers yesterday, it was bloody fantastic. anyone that's even contemplating not watching it, you are insane. am watching it again on monday. :p

some favourite bits i keep replaying in my mind are almost every word that spilt from Gimli's lips, especially his exchanges with Legolas at the battle at Helm's Deep, the Ents attacking Isengard, and Legolas erm... shieldboarding down the stairs, shooting at the same time. *swoons into a little puddle on the floor* yes i know i'm in danger of sounding like a sad teenybopper, but then again, i'm not that far outta that phase, cut me some slack. *grin* and legolas and aragorn are completely hot. *fans self*

can't -wait- to watch it again. *bounces excitedly*

jumped at 8:01 AM

*points vaguely down to the links down on the left* see that little link pointing to a disclaimer? may be worth a read.

anyhow, am bloody tired. *yawns hugely* just got back from shopping with two guys. *rolls eyes* and they say we're indecisive. ha! still didn't manage to find anything chrissie present wise. *sigh* have quite a few people left to get presents for, and no ideas! *panic* speaking of which, i would like to make it officially known that i LOVE my birthday/christmas present from peiyi, and i haven't even gotten it yet! *laugh* stila, stila, stila. *drools* thank you my dear, i'm over the moon :p

jumped at 6:36 AM

it's been a month. and it's funny, but most people seem to have forgotten it's happened. which is to be expected i'd guess. only very, very few people had met my father after all, seeing how he lived over there. but it's strange how people assume that i'm 'over' it. granted, i don't act in any way to disabuse them of the notion, if you disregard the day that i started crying over lunch in canteen 3. i'm not over it, i doubt i'll ever be for quite some time yet, and it hurts, dammit.

and for some of those closest to me, i'm hurt. and possibly rather disappointed. i'm just not up to hearing abt what is for the most part, rather small worries and such. i usually am, because god knows i burden you guys usually with just as much inconsequential nonsense, but to not even ask how i'm coping with it? ever? to not even show any concern about what happened over in australia for the three weeks i was there? because a lot happened. and it's still there you know. lurking behind everything i say, every action i make, everything i do. i feel very alone lately. but that's okay, i'm used to it. the lack of concern still disturbs me though.

how, even if asked, it's just a social question, there for propriety's sake, with the secret hope that i won't say much beyond a simple i'm fine, and a quick change of subject. i can tell you know, and i'm not going to start spilling my guts to you if there's no true concern. not that i would anyway, some days i really don't even want to think about it, but keep it in mind that i've noticed, and if anything has come out of this, it's an increased reliance on myself, since apparently there aren't that many that i would be able to rely on in a time of need.

jumped at 3:48 AM