*yawns and stretches* peiyi just left for home, and we both look slightly the worse for wear after spending practically the entire night talking and talking, as per usual really, yargh, it's going to be so weird when she's gone! *mutter* oh well, guess i'll just have to see when i head over there then. *grin* let it be soon!

i'm really not sure what i'm going to be doing over the next few months, wish i had some kind of clue. studying for my SAT I has got to fit in there somewhere, that's for sure. *sigh*

i met him yesterday. (which him? i'll just leave that dangling methinks.) sometimes.. i don't know. i wish i was.. less conventional? (yes i know, me? conventional? but it depends on who you're being compared with doesn't it?) then i sort of come to my senses and realise that i couldn't possibly fit in with his type of lifestyle, and i'm quite glad i don't, considering. but there's always that little bit of wistfulness. i am over him, (and isn't it funny how people say that more to convince themselves than to convince other people?), or mostly so, anyway. but god i wish he wasn't so hot. and that i didn't enjoy his company quite so much. or that there was anyone that could even come close to comparing with him; faults and all, he's head and shoulders above pretty much every guy i've met in the past year. and with faults like those he's got... perhaps i'm just blind. or blinkered.

doughnuts and muffins. the eternal quandary. (honestly, go read faking it by jennifer crusie. it's great, honest. and you'll know what i'm talking about. if that's a motivational factor. heh.)

jumped at 7:43 PM

spent some time trying to clear out my room today.. didn't get terribly far, but i DID discover a lot of old photos. threw out a lot of them too. i mean, i might have really good pics of take 5, the moffatts, christian wunderlich, trademark, don philip etc, but i mean, who the hell cares anymore? *laugh* also found a few good pics of hanson, which shocked me a fair bit, as i was sure i'd remember if i'd seen them, til i recalled that Lisa sent them to me. lol. found and decided to keep the postcard i got from phil of code red though. *grin* memories man... what fun those days were.

oh, and if anyone knows anyone who wants westlife and BSB stuff? i have posters, photos, limited edition cds, postcards, official photos, coming out of my ears. lol. let me know, do.

jumped at 10:10 AM

just heard that an indonesian friend of ours, aunty hoon, passed away yesterday. along with mr and mrs lim, our neighbours from australia, earlier this year, aunty carmen in dec last year, not to mention my dad in november, it seems to have been nothing but loss, loss, loss. i've known all of these people since i was born, and it's hard to believe that they're gone forever. not being very eloquent here, but the settlement date for the sale of our house in australia, where i grew up, was yesterday, and the cumulative effect is kinda hitting me now. this year has really sucked. and it just looks to be getting steadily worse. lol. how optimistic.

jumped at 9:20 PM

*smile* yesterday was a good day. a really good day. or rather, considering my mother's nagging, a really good evening. haha. met jess at pacific coffee in citilink at about 6pm, and we yakked and yakked absolutely non-stop for hours, completely lost track of time, i only 'woke' up when terrence messaged me and said, i guess we're not meeting tonight huh? (he wanted to be back for smallville. haha. expected.), and i realised it was almost 10pm. lol. but we stayed there til they kicked us out, and then walked over to the coffeeshop outside the national library and talked some more.

it's amazing how we've known each other since we were 9, and we've never actually really gone out. lol. which we should have, long ago, because after all everytime we met in ngee ann one or the other of our friends would have to almost physically drag one of us off to some class or other once we were engrossed in conversation. it was good. gonna do it again soon. :)

so we compared mass comm and biotech, and came to the conclusion that either way we're amazed that we got through it, (though she missed merit by 0.5%! which must've sucked SO bad), and how we actually miss ngee ann nowadays, though we didn't really feel we fit in in the first semester or so. and mostly, about how hard it is to find a guy here who doesn't mind opinionated, independent women, and about all the guys over the years who have told us things like, "You know, guys don't really like independent/clever/loud women." and our inevitable reaction of, "Right, and who needs a guy like that?" And how well, if they're really hot, it's hard for a time to stick to those principles. *laugh* we're really far more alike than not, and it was lovely to find someone who's so much like me, sometimes it gets hard being the odd one out. though usually i enjoy it. *smirk*

jumped at 7:22 PM

just got back from that expo job interview at mitsubishi electric, apparently it's some trade show and they're going to be selling erm, some kind of metal cutting machines. oh, the joy. the machines look a bit like our riboprinter though, which was rather disturbing. lol. anyhow, so i'm going to be working at changi next week, which will be convenient to go and send peiyi and maybe xuefen off to greener pastures. *sniff*

the graduation dinner was erm... *shakes head* *sigh* pathetic. i mean, as peiyi said, ngee ann themed balloons were probably the best indicator of what the evening turned out to be like, even Dr Chang told me that she wished for once they'd change the repertoire. *snigger* so we sat, endured, made fun of whatever/whoever was on stage, ate, and ran. lol. ended up playing gooseberry with peiyi and leong at a bar in holland village til it closed. which was a hell of a lot better than staying at the dinner. :p was supposed to wake up relatively early to go to the aussie education fair to put in my applications for UNSW and UQ, but ended up getting there at 2pm, where it wasn't nearly as bad as rumour would have it. *grin*

proved this morning that my mothers blood really does run through my veins, poked my head in the door of the bus interchange office this morning and yelled at them roundly because their bus drivers don't inform us when they're about to leave. they were quite abjectly apologetic, and i did feel a little twinge of guilt, but, i must say, not that much of one. *cough* i mean, honestly. lucky i wasn't in a rush, or there really would've been hell to pay.

shall be off, need a bit more sleep, was tossing and turning for ages yesterday, and i'm meeting jess for coffee and then terrence for supper tonight, which means a guaranteed late night. plus i'm staying over at peiyi's place on tuesday for a drunken embroidery night *grin peiyi*, so i need to stock up on sleep. *laugh*

and cash. very broke. very very very broke. spent loads on this and this (in a pretty, pretty white angel compact, i am such a sucker for packaging), $67 to be precise, and loads on food and drink, not to mention peiyi's birthday present, which i haven't even got yet. yikes.

right, now i definitely need oblivion. :p

jumped at 8:33 PM