that little fit of anger didn't last very long. i guess i'm really over him. yay! *beams around impartially* i mean, sure, he still gets to me, but it isn't anything that festers anymore. this is good. good good news. no pangs of jealousy about the (many) other girls either. if there is, they're only leeeeetle ones. which don't count. haha. so fun.

oh. and i got a job. i start wednesday night. :) i'm scared! really hoping i'm up to this...

jumped at 10:39 AM

*tightens lips*

it's funny how just talking to someone online can piss me off to this extent. earlier mood isn't completely gone, but i'm not as bouncy as i was. god, the assumptions he makes! like he's the only damn person in the world that matters, and the rest of us exist only to serve. *forcibly relaxes fingers from claw like grip*

Dear egotist boy you've never really had to suffer any consequence
You've never stayed with anyone longer than ten minutes
You'd never understand anyone showing resistance
Dear popular boy I know you're used to getting everything so easily
A stranger to the concept of reciprocity
People honor boys like you in this society

You go back to the women who will dance the dance
You go back to your friends who will lick your ass
You go back to ignoring all the rest of us
You go back to the center of your universe

Dear self centered boy I don't know why I still feel affected by you
I've never lasted very long with someone like you
I never did although I have to admit I wanted to
Dear magnetic boy you've never been with anyone who doesn't take your shit
You've never been with anyone who's dared to call you on it
I wonder how you'd be if someone were to call you on it

~ narcissus [alanis morissette]

jumped at 12:29 PM

i'm happy today. happy happy happy! *beams around beatifically* for the following reasons:

1. it's friday! enough said.

2. today at work, time passed pretty fast, and i had a good time with fida as usual, acting like complete maniacs/escapees from IMH (to those that would say this, no, that is NOT how i normally act. hrmph.) got paid, (since it's by the hour) to sit at a little kopitiam place and drink iced milo. *aevil laughter*

3. played with some little kittens, (7 to be precise), at the national stadium (yes, currently working IN the national stadium), and two of them fell asleep on my lap. sooooo cute! *gets all giggly and girly* meep. someone stop me. photos once fida's camera has battery and she sends them to me. :p wanted to bring one home, but my dog would not have approved.

4. my mummy's in jakarta! before anyone asks, i have no idea what she's doing there, she just up and went yesterday. lol. but it means i can let the housework slack for a while, think i'll do the dishes from yesterday, tomorrow morning. :p

5. *secretive smile* something else. *innocent*

6. ooh, late contender, terrence just rang me, and i'm meeting him for coffee. so gotta run! ;) more reasons when i think of em! *sparkle*

jumped at 8:27 AM

just got back from the kelly clarkson showcase, it wasn't bad, though rather short. lol. man that girl can sing. powerful voice, but she kinda needs to work on how she uses it. alright way to spend an evening though. didn't expect to go, but at about 5.30pm i suddenly got offered 3 tix, one from annz (thanks dear!), and two from an old contact of mine from waaaaaay back. didn't realise she was still in the business even. brought marcus. :) now you have to do spectacularly well for your o levels! haha.

aaaaanyhow. *squeals slightly* utt was there! *dryly* and that, of course, made it all worthwhile. even the $20 in cab fares. because, being me, i'd slobbed into work wearing my loosest jeans, a huge t-shirt and flip flops. embassy wouldn't have let me in. haha. so had to rush back, change and everything like a complete maniac, and rush back down. luckily i had two very chivalrous 'white knight rescues damsel in distress' type taxi drivers who sped like mad to get me there and back. so nice. hope they don't get tickets. lol.

jumped at 8:01 AM

very tired lately. sleeeeeeepy. work does not agree with me. heh. stapled another 2000 sheets of paper together today, will be folding all 3000 sets and sending them out tomorrow. cool, huh? NOT. *cough* regardless, i appear to have to continue working, and to that end, i had another job interview today, but i'm not going to say much abt it, mainly because i don't think i'll get it, mostly cos i've no experience in that area. (not sure the fact that i want experience and i have to start somewhere will make much of a difference to them. heh.) cross your fingers for me darlings. ;)

btw, for those that have my cell number, starhub has been playing up of late, haven't been receiving some sms's, and some msgs i send aren't getting through. so if you don't get a reply, it's not me being a bitch, it's all starhub's fault! go yell at them. :p 1633. haha.

gonna go wash my face, lie down, and pretend to flip through my SAT book. ;)

jumped at 5:29 AM

called peiyi and xuefen yesterday. :) they're doing fine, settling in really well, and orientation officially began today. *bounce* i'm getting excited, and i'm here! haha. forgot to tell her that i'd opened the pistachio, pistachio and even though it's not really my flavour, i'm eating it anyway. *groan* but yes. haha.

peiyi's on the 3rd floor of her hostel and so had to lug her (exceedingly) heavy luggage up those flights of stairs, but xuefen, as expected, fluttered her eyelashes and mewed pathetically at the bottom of the stairs and an ang moh guy carried it up for her. rofl. now that's the xuefen we know and love. *giggle* even in manchester she was forever meeting some guy at the laundry or some weird place like that. :p (btw, the description of her was courtesy of peiyi. you can imagine xuefen in the background paddling her ineffectually if that helps. :p)

they also told me:

"Get your arse over here, quick! How are the three musketeers supposed to be the three musketeers if one's thousands of miles away!"

or words to that effect. heh. i'm trying girls, keep your hair on. *grin* and what abt the musketeers faithful dog, ZQ? he's stuck in NS. and we need him, yannoe, to like, carry our shopping bags all over the UK. ;)

going blind at work, scrolling through a mailing list 30,000 names long, looking for inaccuracies. yikes. and tomorrow, it's back to stapling! (yay. no. really. wheeeee. *resounding lack of enthusiasm*)

oh, and this struck a chord.

jumped at 7:20 AM

better late than never, last weeks friday five:

1. Is the name you have now the same name that's on your birth certificate? If not, what's changed?

not really, I go by Lianne now, which is technically not on my birth certificate, but which makes things a lot easier. it's not officially changed yet, but i am considering a change by deed poll to add it in.

2. If you could change your name (first, middle and/or last), what would it be?

I'd give myself a middle name! *grin* probably alaina, or as i said, adding Lianne as my english name.

3. Why were you named what you were? (Is there a story behind it? Who specifically was responsible for naming you?)

i just asked my mum about this, and she said she didn't know. very flattering, no? apparently it means something nice or other in chinese. *grin*

4. Are there any names you really hate or love? What are they and why?
i hate the name beatrice. i don't know why. and i don't like patricia, (though i like patrick), theresa, gerald, george, gary, bertram and quite a few more. *grin* all for some unfathomable reason. i love alaina, as mentioned above, as well as alyssa, dominique & giselle for girls, and damian, nicholas, marc, jamie, taylor, jordan, kyle and especially alasdair for guys.

5. Is the analysis of your name at kabalarians.com accurate? How or how isn't it?

erm. practical? responsible? stable? no. heh. however it is rather accurate in that i am self reliant, and i resent interference in my life by other (well meaning or not) people. and my bluntness has gotten me into several people's bad books before, but then again, for the most part, i don't care. *grin* so it's about 50/50. not very good accuracy really.

Your name of Lianne has created a practical, responsible, stable nature, and you desire to direct the efforts of others rather than to take order or ask permission. You have a determined, self-reliant, capable nature and resent any interference, although in your desire to help you are inclined to become involved in the lives and decisions of other people. You like to make your own decisions and to be the master of your domain. You feel a limitation in your own expression when it is necessary to reach another through tact and understanding. Although you are honest and fair, a directness in speech is a source of much consternation to you, and you often regret what you say. You also have a tendency to worry. It causes you to be too serious, and interferes with happiness and relaxation that comes with naturalness of expression.

jumped at 5:44 AM