i'm tired, very tired. and i ache all over. *sniff* yesterday was a long, long day.

first met someone for lunch, then went down to far east plaza to check out my Gucci shades, cos the guy called me and told me the model i wanted was in already, decided against them, then went to NYDC for a lemon shiver, but they were out of sherbet. *cries* nvm, i shall satisfy my craving another day. the waiter there was very, very hot. *sparkle* then ended up at PS to check out another pair of Gucci's i had my eye on, and bought them. wheeeeeeee. my treat to myself for my SAT results. *beams* they're so pretty. *happy sigh*

then met some of my poly friends, including her and her, who were going for dinner. hung around for like, ten minutes or so before i had to go to work. bah. *sniff* wish i could've spent more time with you lot!

work sucked. bloody hell. it was the longest night i've ever had to work through. kept looking at my watch like, every minute cos time was passing so damn slowly. it was dead quiet for a friday night, only a few of the very regular regulars were in, consuming crates of heineken bottles. lol. maybe the novelty of working there is just wearing off for me. or i'm just too tired. we'll see how long more i last there. after i finally got out of there at about 2.45am, met someone else and sat at the centrepoint mcdonald's til 4am, eating my instant noodles. *grin* so proud of myself, i'm actually able to take some spicier stuff, compared to last time. still a wimp though. heh. then finally back home. til he left at... 6am? or something. and i wasn't able to sleep past noon. *groan* must have an afternoon nap sometime soon, work later. *mutter* and tonight there's 3 rugby matches, and 3 soccer matches. *sigh* at least if it's busy time will pass faster.

jumped at 11:00 PM

i got my SAT results today.

1560!!!

800 for verbal.

760 for math.

*dies happy*

still short of the 1600 target, but fair enough, really. now to start getting applications out.

jumped at 8:36 PM

i've been finding a lot of new town-ers on friendster the last few days. for those not in the know, i was in new town secondary for a brief period of a year when i was 13, and well, it wasn't err, terribly memorable as far as schools go, but well, i don't really remember much of the four years i spent in secondary school, or 3 years really, minusing the year i was home schooled. was probably too traumatic. lol. esp the year in st margaret's. *shudder*

but yea, the reason this is even slightly relevant is that i'm currently working with one of my ex-classmates from there, Qiumei, and we've been semi-reminiscing about the little that i remember, and trying, sometimes in vain, to remember people that were my classmates way back when. helps the time pass when we're dispensing 5ul amounts of various substances into hundreds of eppendorf tubes. heh.

on to the slightly more depressing stuff. next week, the 30th, would have been my father's birthday. it's not going to be an easy day for me. 2 weeks after that, on november 17th, will be the first anniversary of his death. a week after that is my 20th birthday. in the past few days, i've reverted to the random crying jags that were so common early this year, alarming various people unfamiliar with the background to it. it's prolly going to get much, much worse over the next month or so, this is just a warning that i'm not going to be particularly cheery for a while, though hopefully it'll be nowhere near the almost complete emotional breakdown of last year. and i'll prolly be going on about it at length. here, anyway. just... bear with me, k? :)

everytime i try to grasp for air
i get smothered in despair, it's never over, over,
seems i'll never wake from this nightmare
i let out a silent prayer that it be over, over..

inside i'm screaming, begging, pleading,
no more..
i don't know what to do,
my heart has been bruised,
so sad but it's true,
each beat reminds me of you..

it hurts my soul,
cos i can't let go,
all these walls are caving in,
i can't stop my suffering..
~ walk away [christina aguilera]

jumped at 7:04 AM

argh. bush's in singapore? god save me. *chokes* i think my air's becoming polluted as we speak.

got stuff done today! went to the library to get some badly needed mental stimulation, got my eyebrows done, they were beginning to look very unkempt, and bought my pink topshop top. *beams happily* and the fcuk edt. very good evening. lol. i cherish my nights off nowadays, i really do. 4 days to my SAT results!

::edit:: *looks up at the post* jeez that was random. ::/edit::

jumped at 7:04 AM

singapore is so bloody small.

last night, at the pub, one of my regular customers, brian, came in. and we talked for a while, as long as my supervisor wasn't around anyway. and i met his parents, over from the UK. haha. but anyway, today, when i was ordering lunch at subway, (due to cute guy working there as mentioned in ann's comments), he came up and ordered right behind me. forgot he was a reporter at reuters, which is also round abouts here somewhere. and he knows the err, aforementioned cute guy. *smirk* very interesting. now wondering if i should go ahead with inventing an imaginary boyfriend for his benefit as i was planning last night. i think i need lessons in telling people diplomatically that i'm just not interested. and this whole post doesn't make much sense. but it's at the end of the workday, and i can be forgiven.

going to meet sarah at bugis. yay. there's a topshop there. the pink top is in the offing methinks. and maybe the gucci shades i saw at PS yesterday. *bounce* okay, think i shall stop here, cos this whole post is getting very... incoherent. *babbles* not to mention pointless.

but i'm bored. and that's my excuse for everything. :)

jumped at 2:14 AM