met someone for dinner tonight. for those who remember that far back, when there were a lot of 'him's being mentioned, with no names attached, he was the main one. *grin* and goodness was i into him. poor sarah had lots to endure the months we were doing our final year project. haha. they never liked each other very much as i recall. :p he's still much the same, still good looking, though he's lost the eyebrow piercing, more's the pity, still dragging me out of airconditioning in order to smoke, (surely the most annoying factor in dating a smoker), still failing his way through poly, still can't hold an umbrella so it shelters the both of us, still too tall, still too many women. though he's complaining now that they're too easy and there's no challenge any more. *rofl* though he was whinging tonight about how i'm not supposed to laugh in his face when he tries to kiss me, or when he was trying out any number of clichéd lines and moves. lol. hilarious. seriously hilarious.

i think i'm over my bad boy phase though, and you've no idea how relieved i am.

this weeks friday five:

1. List your five favorite beverages.

• cranberry juice mixed with sprite


• snowball


• peppermint green tea with pearls


• camomile tea


• sex on the beach

• little.yellow.different.


• La Société des Femmes Dangereuses


• meish.org


• Marn's Big Adventure


• Paperback Writer

• chips. proper english chips, mind you. with vinegar.


• ritter sport chocolate with hazelnuts


• cherry tomatoes


• seedless grapes


• meiji plain biscuits with cheese

• Careers


• Trivial Pursuit


• Yahtzee


• The Game of Life


• Boggle (i know it's not technically a board game. neither is yahtzee. but oh wells.)

• The Sims


• Achaea


• Harvest Moon. *grin*no, i'm not kidding. :p


• Pharaoh


• Theme Hospital

jumped at 6:49 AM

watched lotr yesterday. *big happy grin* finished work at 11pm, and terrence picked me up and we watched the 12.10am show at PS. I half-froze to death. teeth were chattering! and he was complaining i was making him feel inadequate, cos he couldn't help. haha. he's decided to keep a jacket in his car from now on. *lol* his machismo is so easily insulted. heh. he was actually supposed to watch it today with his friends, but he was like, "How many people can claim to have watched 2 movies with you? Let alone in the same year?" *dies laughing* and the thing is, besides family and cath, he's prolly the only one. lol. i mean, as a general gauge, i've only watched 3 movies this year. :p

shan't post at length abt the movie, since everyone's gonna watch it anyway. but aragorn. legolas. *whimpers appreciatively* *goes and hunts for the legolas poster she's misplaced* it's so going up today. lol. not that that was the best thing about the movie, mind you, i'm not quite that ditzy yet. lol.

am trying to get up the energy to put pics up.. somewhere. and wondering if i should wait til i'm hosted. or until i get a net connection for my mac so i don't have to transfer it to this and from here online. my poor thumbdrive is a bit overworked as it is.

might be going for the mac sale later. or not. s'a bit late as it is. but hey, my mum's coming with me, who knows what might happen. *grin* though err, considering the recent purchases, i shouldn't hold my breath. :P

jumped at 10:29 PM

sudden urge to ponder out loud. (well, i mean.. out loud, like, figuratively speaking. :p) back in october, i decided, that's it, no more even considering a relationship, because there's no point, because i'm leaving so soon. this was also sparked off by a prolonged lack of any even reasonably attractive male crossing my path. well. attractive to me at any rate, which, as some people will tell you, is quite err.. different from the norm. heh. so why is it, -why-, that the moment i decide this, suddenly there's this preponderance of people that are.. erm.. potentials? it's very annoying. and when it rains, it bloody pours. i mean, normally i'd be the last to complain, i wasn't called 'hua chi' in year 1 for nothing, (though, *cough*, it took me ages to get someone to explain it to me in terms i understood), but seriously, this is getting kinda ludicrous. and it's not those terribly gorgeous guys who are wonderful to flirt with cos they have oodles of confidence, but make useless boyfriends, these are like, genuine potentials. lol. because i mean, flirting's fine, it's almost a hobby of mine, and i could really get used to a lot of hot guys crossing my path. :p but for the rest, why now? jesus christ. *grumbles* (though i'd like to announce to those people who will accuse me of leading people on, you know who you are, that i have restrained myself remarkably well in all but one or two cases. so there. nyeeeeeeh. =P)

ok. anyway, went to have dinner with stacey today cos it's her birthday, with some of her friends, (one of which, yes, did spark off the above rant), had the holiday inn buffet, which was quite useless for me again because i eat so little, and then watched them play pool at meridien, while i painted my nails this lovely dark slutty maroon that stacey had on her, bless her heart, (which i did a very good job of considering the lack of light, even at the couches at the corner, dubbed the "snogging sofas" by us, because really, what else were they secluded there for?), then went for drinks. quite a good night out, all in all. :) although, we went shopping before, and the butterfly necklace i wanted from that store in far east is GONE!! *heartrending wail* i got another (vastly cheaper) one, but it's not the same. the other one was gorgeous! *sobs*

and i need to go sleep, because i'm meeting syahzan for breakfast tomorrow at the ungodly hour of.. well.. 10.30am. haha. he finally decided to arrange it the day before because all he's gotten from me when he's called the past few days have been unladylike grunts. *innocence* my sleeping times are very screwed up right now. :p

and, more quizzes! *muhaha*

1. First Name: Lianne

2. Were you named after any anyone? nope!

3. Do you wish on stars? once in a very long while.

4.Which finger is your favourite? my index finger on my right hand. it has a nice fingernail. :p

5. When did you last cry? last night.

6. Do you like your handwritting? nope. *grin* and neither would you if you saw it.

7. What is your favourite meat? venison

8. Any bad habits? complete and utter slobbiness.

9. What is your most embarrassing CD on the shelf? *blushes* this moffatts cd from when they were like.. 10? and sounded like chipmunks. though thinking abt it, i'd wager scott'd be way more embarrassed by it, eh fidz?

10. If you were another person, would you be friends WITH you? of course! *angelic smile* i'd be crazy not to. :p *grin* such modesty. :p

11. Are you a daredevil? not a'tall

12. Have you ever told a secret you swore not to tell? erm. maybe. after it didn't matter any more.

13. Do looks matter? i'd be lying if i said no, but i can overcome it with enough incentive.

14. Have you ever misused a word and it sounded absolutely stupid? oh yes.

15. Do you think there is a pot of gold at the end of the rainbow? er. no.

16. Do fish have feelings? for their sake, i hope not. all the stuff that gets done to 'em in aquaculture labs.. *shudder* *reminds sarah about the "fried fish" thing* thank god i took agrotechnology instead. :P

17. Are you trendy? i like to think so, but honesty compels me to say probably not.

18. How do you release anger? make snarky comments at people at mrt stations refusing to get out of my way, tvmobile, and random people that annoy me. loudly and obviously. blast songs that suit my mood. invent new vulgarities under my breath and curse the person involved til i feel better. :)

19. Where are your second homes? airlie beach, australia.

21. What was your favourite toy as a child? : hammers, nails and my dad's wood pile. *grin*

22. What class in school do you think is totally useless? SCV!!! otherwise known as social and community values, useless government module brainwashing you about how you should think and act. did very well in it though, cos i lie easy. ;) so maybe oral and written communication, which i got a B for, because, get this, i talk too fast. what the fuck.. just because she didn't have the mental capacity to keep up with what i was saying.. *seethes*

24. Have you ever been on television? yeah, coupla times. can, vidz (with fidz! haha), the dreaded upfront with najip, TWG, and prolly a few more here and there.

25. Do u keep a journal? yep, one online, one on my com, and one written.

26. Do you use sarcasm a lot? yes. *evil grin*

27. Have you ever been in a mosh pit? nope. because a) anything in singapore called a mosh pit patently isn't, and b) being stuck in the middle of a load of unwashed armpits and beer being sloshed all over the place isn't my kinda thing.

28. What do you look for in a guy/girl? how much time do you have? *flutter* someone intelligent. that reads. good grades, and has ambition. and for god's sake, he should have a decent english vocabulary. someone that goes, "Huh?" every time i use a three syllable word can piss off. *smirk* and you know, all the cliches, caring, kind, decent, blah blah blah, you all know this already, i don't need to go on. can have a wild side, but not too much so, should be confident, but not cocky, and not feel the need to impress me, (though of course, a little of that here and there, particularly at the beginning, never goes wrong. :p) right, shall stop here.


29. What are your nicknames? don't really have any. Li, i guess, though that's mostly used by close family. with notable exceptions. lol.

30. Would you bungee? yep.

31. Do you un-tie your shoes when you take them off? have to, i like my sneakers on tight.

32. What are you worried about right now? my future. and a myriad of other things.

33. Do you ever wear overalls? god no. definitely not my style.

35. What's your favourite ice cream flavor? : double choc chip, passionfruit, and mango.

36. What's your favourite colour/s? blue, purple, green and black.

37. What is your least fav. thing in the world?: thing? ooh, has to be the puppet currently in the white house methinks.

38. How many wisdom teeth do you have? i can feel two coming out. bleh.

39. Are you in love with anyone? lol. i hope not!

40. How many people have a crush on you right now? er. i don't know. how would i know? people don't come up and say, "*shuffles feet* err, i like you leh" anymore when you're 20. however, refer to above rant. haha.

41. Who do you miss most right now? my dad. and jim and.. nvm. lol.

jumped at 8:56 AM

today was actually pretty good, work-wise, one of the few days when my tips are more than what i earn, $56, actually. *big grin*

didn't want to come home after i got off at 11 though, i've decided that being at home alone might be something i'd like to avoid for the next few days, at least at night. so ended up going for supper with Aza, and getting back to the pub in time to take transport home. it's almost funny really, there're 4 floor staff at the moment that're going through err.. bad patches, and all of us were working tonight. lol. aza's the one with the problem most akin to my own, but his is much, much worse, so it's sort of like, helping myself by attempting to listen and help someone else. what makes it worse is that it happened to him yesterday, and today's his birthday. wonderful timing huh? the christmas period as well, no less.

bleh. *promises herself she won't blog anymore abt this topic today* seriously, i'm getting so pathetic i'm annoying the shite out of myself. aaaaaanyway, someone beat my high score on the game machine at work! i am going to keep playing until i get it back. *grumbles* okay, now this is just degenerating into complete worthless crap. :p shall go and put it all down in my journal, then try and sleep. *hugs everyone who's smsed and commented* you guys are wonderful. *snuggle*

jumped at 10:13 AM

sum up your 2003 in twenty words.

graduation. disappointments. new jobs, new experiences. broken friendships, tentative relationships. too emotional all year. halting recovery. looking toward the future.

jumped at 11:02 PM

heard from my bro today on icq, he says that he's moving to the UK next year, has already given notice at his workplace actually. so. what this actually means? that in the event that i don't get the UNSW scholarship, something that's rather likely, (*wibble*), i should be going over with him. which is making me feel much better, because then it's not quite so intimidating as going over by myself with no job, no qualifications, no accommodation and no money. *grin*

he's prolly coming over here in march, and we're going to thailand for a bit, and then i guess the UK thing will be more likely to be april, or even may, which gives me ages yet, certainly much more than i've been assuming based on the mid-feb departure. i'm not sure how i feel about this. :p but it'll be worth it if i get to go over with him. :)

jumped at 7:02 AM

i've already finished 3 of the 4 books i borrowed yesterday. it's amazing how much immersing yourself in a novel helps to block out thought of your own life and problems. of course, the only problem with it, is when you finish that last page, everything just comes crashing down on you again. which is nice and cheerful, isn't it? *sad smile* sorry darlings, for happy and fluffy thoughts, perhaps it'd be best to avoid this page. check back in a week or so.

but things're getting better. less of a headache from the tears, more rest than can possibly be good for me, due to my staying in bed reading, eating chocolates, and listening to the innumerable amount of songs that 'apply' to this situation (isn't it amazing how certain lyrics take on a whole new meaning once you're in a particular situation?). complete self-indulgence, deserved or not. probably not. i'm sure it seems like it's a bit of overkill really, considering. like i'm totally overreacting. it's not something that's 'supposed' to hurt so much, if at all, over a slight, "oh well, that's that" kind of disappointment. from the rest of the worlds point of view anyway. i don't think i ever expected it to affect me this much. but then, much of what happened was probably due to that fact. bleh.

'scuse me, i think i'm going to start the fourth book. and then find something to do that does involve my mind, and doesn't let me think. thinking is the enemy right now. lol. see? even vestiges of dark humour. i'm fine, really. no matter whom it is i'm trying to convince and console.

jumped at 11:55 PM

when i'm upset, i always seem to end up at a library, because for one, it's one of those places where it's okay to be by yourself, people don't much care if you wear shades indoors and look up at the ceiling from time to time to blink rapidly, (though even if they did, i'm well, me enough not to give a fuck), and i acquire fodder for my brain to stop it from thinking in these endless, endless, unproductive, depressing circles.

i don't know what to write. i feel like i want to, but my brain's not focused enough for me to write coherent sentences, let alone phrase anything about something that's been depressing, frustrating and confusing the heck out of me this past week. then again, nothing i write now is going to change the fact that well, the situation is what it is, like it or not. i think that tonight, my journal's going to bear the brunt of it, and hopefully, in a while, i'll look back and laugh at how abjectly miserable i am right now. *wry smile* it's certainly happened before, after all. funny how that doesn't make me feel any better.

jumped at 4:33 AM

i was going to write a happy entry. really, i was. cos i was happy. for a while. not any longer.

i hate gray areas. and i hate emotions, and the way they get out of hand. and i really, really, hate cold, hard, facts.

jumped at 11:08 AM